What do I do? (Patreon)

This probably seems silly to most but my choker that I wear in just about all my reactions has gone missing.

It's a stretchy tattoo plastic choker with little diamantes on it and it's so tied to my identity and what I look like on this channel that I feel uncomfortable recording without it. I feel naked, my whole neck/collar bone area is just bare.

I used another choker I own yesterday and that broke today as well.

I have looked everywhere for my favourite choker with no luck.

I wish I could just go out and buy a new one but the one I bought was unique from a Chinese shop like 10 years ago and I can't find a replacement for it online.

I really don't know what to do without it lol. It sounds silly but it's part of who I am here. The pop vinyl dolls that were made of me even have that choker on it.

What do you think I should do? *First world problems....