Update - Pausing for May (Patreon)

Hey everyone

As you may have noticed, this month has had basically no content in it. I'm really sorry about that. There are reasons for it but it's definitely going to require me to pause payments for May to catch up and provide you with reassurances I can still get content out.

At the end of March and beginning of April I moved house. This went relatively smoothly but has had a major impact on my momentum. This has combined with trying a new ADHD drug (Elvanse) which has been positive in some ways (I'm much more social and feel a lot better connected to friends and loved ones) but has had a negative impact on my ability to write. 

This is apparently not an uncommon reaction to ADHD meds, that a persons imagination or creative process can be impacted, and it definitely seems to track directly that this month has been almost impossible to write in despite feeling, overall, in a better mood.

It puts me in the frustrating situation of having to choose between writing or feeling "good" day to day. That's not a healthy choice to give someone who enjoys writing when he's in the right headspace but is currently managing a recovery process to try and get back to some sense of routine. It's even affected my ability to stream on Twitch, another part of my life I was hoping to get back on track.

I don't think it's impossible to get into a place where I am both writing, happy, and in a routine that is healthy. My parents are moving in with me mid-way through May, which will reduce the current load on my anxiety over the new house and give me more space in my head and time to work. 

I want to be able to take two steps forward in one part of my life without it feeling like I take a step back in another during this process but that's constantly proving difficult. Next month it will be a year since I had a mental breakdown that meant I essentially lost my job and had to completely reassess my life and future. While I'm in a far better place than I was then, this is taking time and careful management.

Fingers crossed you'll see more stuff coming through in May for the wonderful people on my higher tiers for whom I owe work.

Best wishes

Daddy Wuffster