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hi

it's been kinda hard pushing through with the things going on with me lately! i know you guys aren't rushing but i'm rushing myself and even if i get busy with things i get really upset with myself if i don't complete my to do list of tasks that i write down every night for the next day. it literally hinders me and puts pressure on me (self inflicted) and then i get self conscious when i press record.. i don't want to bring any of that negativity/bad mood into any of the videos to put into you guys' days. always trying to be better is really tiring and it's discouraging that it's that way.

anyways while you're here, i also want to add i'm going to try to get back to my m/w/f posting habits so i'm gonna drop some videos and try again tomorrow for filming some for yall. still trying. sorry if you feel like you've been waiting for something for a while, been trying to listen to the majority when it comes to what to watch to make as many of you guys happy with being here..

**that does not include IOTNBO cause i want to finish that before the end of the month and i'll try to do that next month with extracurricular as well. **

sending love