I'm back. (Patreon)

Things have derailed so quickly. And quite horrendously. So… I’m going to put my goals on hold because I have no other option while I tackle a more prominent event in my life right now. 

Our PUA (Pandemic Unemployment Assistance), our current means of income has stopped, and our jobs that we had waiting for us when it was supposed to end aren’t as viable as we thought. Plain and simple, we need money to get by. Between the two of us, we have about a thousand dollars. Bills, medication, dog food; those are my big three right now that are going to eat into that thousand very quickly. 

I’m glad I didn’t make that leap for school yet because I would be landing flat on my face right now. Am I panicking? Most definitely. Am I going to just sit on my butt? No, it’s time to dig deep and show what I’m made of. It’s anxiety and depression, but you’d be surprised by how far that can take you when your options are limited. It’s not as bad as it could be. 

I want to say our living situation is very fortunate, we, unlike most people in America in this global pandemic, don’t have to worry about losing our home, at the moment. We live with my parents, mostly to help around the house and with generally anything else they might need. We do have to worry about everything else in terms of finances for ourselves. 

Right now, I’m very worried. I’m stressed, so I’m going to be drawing to destress while I try and latch onto a job that can provide a somewhat survivable income. I didn’t want this. Nobody wants to be in this position. I feel like a jackass for leaving and then coming back so suddenly because my life is imploding, again. 

I was really gone this time, out the door. I was scared but I was taking the steps to get to what I wanted. Then this, I sat up all night with my wife because for a moment, I had no idea what we were going to do to fix this. For a second, I had no hope. I let us have a moment of escape, we played a game for a few hours and then we talked about what we could do. 

She’s high risk, I know the vaccines are rolling out but that’s still going to take time, so she’s looking for something remote which is ultimately what she wants in the end. Me? I can do warehouse work, retail, some managerial stuff, but no one is exactly hiring for that kind of work at the moment. So, I’m going to do something, I’ll draw for now. I don’t know, this isn’t how I wanted to come back. I wanted it to be on my terms. Good terms, you know? I have to do something, though. 

I hope you’ll continue to support me, but please, don’t feel obligated to stay a patron if it’s not what you want. I’m going to get started now. I'll be updating the other sites with what
I can post. See you all in the next post on Friday. Have a good day. Be safe out there.