Update - Fires in California (Patreon)

Hey, everyone. This week has been not so good. Three big things. We have the fires in California, Illness, and a death in the family.

I've been holding off mentioning the fires. The air quality has been pretty bad the past few days as the fires have been growing. I think there are over 300 fires in our state atm and only roughly 5% contained. The fires are near me and my family. There are evacuation orders for the towns surrounding mine and I'm kind of waiting for it to be out turn. Holding out, hoping it won't cross the river and come our way. But if it does, there isn't exactly a lot I can take with me.

The fires couldn't come at a worse time with most of my household being sick at this moment. A stomach bug that's got everyone down but me and my brother. My wife was showing symptoms today and has been resting for the most part. I've been a little preoccupied trying to keep things going since my brother does work overnight still. “Essential” means he's getting screwed over at work and has been working very hard since the pandemic began.

Lastly, my grandmother on my dad's side finally passed away. She had been suffering a lot for the past few years. My household is the black sheep of the family in a way and my siblings and I have never felt welcome at any family event. My grandma was the exception. She was nice but in the past few years, well, I don't think she remembered who I was at all. Due to the pandemic, and the higher deaths in my area, and I imagine every area, there's been a bit of a wait time to schedule a time with the funeral parlor. She passed two days ago but we won't get to talk about the matters with someone until 2 in the afternoon, today. I'll be going with my dad who is not taking it well. He's the generic good dad. Works hard, is all mushy with his wife, tries to be there for us despite being exhausted from work. His dad was a piece of shit and I'm thankful he's a better man than him. He says he's okay but being a damaged person, I can tell when I've heard that lie before. So i'll be there tomorrow with him, unless we have to evacuate..


Until then, it's about 2 in the morning, and I can't sleep. I made some coffee and I'm going to work on some of the sketched scans I did last month. I didn't do any anatomy studies this week but I'll be doubling it up for next week. I had a “eureka!” moment with something on Monday, I think it was, and I scrapped all the stuff I was working on beforehand. Yes, I scrapped it but it'll be better. Trust me. In a weird way, I don't get as sad as I used to, I get a blast of it once or twice a day, but I just keep fighting past it. It's been nice. I feel like I've been able to bulldoze through all the bad things these past few months. Maybe it'll hit me all at once, or maybe not. Until then, I've got work to do. Stay safe, everyone.