What’s up (Patreon)

Hello all.

I hope you’ve been doing well. Been a while since I posted last.

First of all, thanks for the continued support throughout this year. Wanted to give you some thoughts as to what’s going on and a content update as well.

TLDR content: I’ll start posting new Infrasound stuff, no schedule and sporadic due to various reasons, mainly the continued editing work on Azarinth. I edited the previously posted Infrasound chapters as well and am aware that it’s been a while. Poll is in regards to how I should post those edited chapters. Feel free to vote. Several options possible. All on the 2.50$ USD tier for now as well.

Random ramblings from here on out.

Was a bit weird after posting the last climax on azarinth. I was busy with edits on book 2, and now book 3. I planned to dedicate most of my time to Infrasound but editing was more extensive than I expected. That’s fine. I do enjoy the process. It’s rewarding in a lot of ways. But it’s not quite the same as writing new stuff.

For the past few weeks, I’ve been working on Infrasound. Been planning, going back and forth with different ideas etc. Something felt a bit weird though.

I had thought about how I wanted to do this. I had planned to finish enough chapters for one “book”, with some kind of clear cutting point for book 2. Then I would start posting, more frequent on patreon and less frequent on RR, to slowly build things up. I thought that would be the most efficient way to do things, both for me, and in terms of reader experience.

I still think that’s the most efficient way in terms of building interest/providing the best reader experience but my monkey brain misses posting stuff that I write.

I don’t miss the pressure I mostly put on myself back when I started serializing. And I don’t miss some of the comments I’d get, even though most were nice. Hard to differentiate for the human brain.

I have two books out on amazon now. And I gotta say… it’s just not the same. There’s just something so fucking exciting and rewarding to put up a rough chapter and seeing people’s reactions/discussions etc. It’s far more personal than feedback on an entire book. Far more engaged. Far more frequent too, and more easily achieved with single chapters instead of the daunting task of 200’000 words.

I know that that level of engagement was also partially responsible for fucking me up. But I’ve learned a lot. And if it gets too much again, I’ll take another break, step away, touch grass. Even though that will make some people feel anrgy or disappointed.

I feel more aware of it all. Feel more aware of my fears and the pressure, and in the past weeks, I’ve grown aware of the purpose and belonging that I’m missing. Feelings I’d gotten from writing stuff and sharing it with you. Finishing a book, then posting it efficiently, doing marketing etc. that’s cool and all, but maybe just not for me. Not right now.

So long story short, I miss sharing what I make. The new stuff. The more vulnerable stuff. The stuff I truly care about. And I’m ready to get wrecked by it again. Until I take another break.

I have some Infrasound chapters ready but the writing process for this one is much slower in terms of wordcount, so going forward, releases won’t be plenty. I have to consider editing azarinth as well now. Splits my attention, for good reason of course but yeah, less content posted. No schedule either because schedules are fucked.

I last posted Infrasound sometime last year I think? Chapter 37 I believe. I edited through everything in January, no major changes. Main thing are some changes in regards to knowledge and skills Kate should have as a firefighter, and a certain bomb is more ambiguous now. I just wanted to ask how you all would like those edited chapters. One pdf/epub or chunks of 5 released within a few days or a week so that you can get back into the story if you want to.

Let me know.

And as always, thank you for reading.