Break and extensive patreon changes (Patreon)

Hello all. Neeext update. You've been following the slow trainwreck over the past few months and I finally reached the point where my body won out. Sadly my Mental Res is not high enough. Had a mild panic attack last week. I can't write at the moment.

I don't think constantly postponing / skipping releases in the hope to be better / writing updates, and having you lads wait for chapters makes sense. It's not working out. I'm tired.

My conclusion. I have to take a step back. And I have to change up the situation that got me here.

First. I'm taking all of February off. For anyone that feels the February charge wasn't worth it due to this break, feel free to message me on patreon, I'm happy to provide refunds. Please do so until the 15th of February.

Now I might feel better after this break or I might not. I outlined various reasons why I feel shit in the previous statements, but it really boils down to pressure and expectations. Both from myself and others.

What I don't want is to fall back into this in two or three months’ time. Just thinking about pumping out chapters again to a somewhat defined schedule freaks me the fuck out. I have never felt like this before and it sucks.

To avoid that, I have to change up some basic stuff about my setup. Starting in March, patreon tiers will not mention advance chapters anymore. Nor will I post new chapters on patreon.

I will catch up Royalroad in March and will write at my own pace. No schedule, nothing. New chapters will go up on Royalroad directly. Those of you who wish to support me can continue to do so on patreon, but on a basis of support only and not to receive early access. I understand that many will cancel due to this and that is okay. I don't see another way how I can reduce the pressure I feel (largely self induced - you've been super fucking supportive and generally really nice about my issues in the past months).

I have various ideas on how to include advance chapters or other patreon content in the future but I don't think it will be based on a schedule quite like the one I've had for so long. But we'll see. I'm trying to navigate through all of this as I go and I'll keep you updated as I see fit.

Sorry for the continued bumps. It annoys me to no end that I can't write in the same manner as I used to for so long. But it is how it is. I can't fight my body any longer. I have to sit down and get my shit together. And then I'll get back to writing. At my own pace.

Thank you for the insane support over the years, the comments and messages, and for coming to care about my writing. I'll post again when I have something to post.

If you have any questions feel free to ask in the comments. I'm happy to clarify.