Me these past three days (Pixiv Fanbox)

Hi, all. This week has been a doozy. My day job was actually back to normal 8 hours, which gave me ample time to do session work. However, this is the part where these past three days have been an exercise in futility. I wanted something Bryce Howard centric and I thought I had it in the bag. Turns out I didn't. For three days I've pumped out pose after pose and scene after scene, only for nothing to meet my standards. It's a rough go. I finally gave up after dedicating around 4-5 hours today to one pose and sticking with it, only to see how it was never going to work as a public release. Maybe I'll release some of these failed tests for Hardcore supporters, to show you how much I actually screw up before getting it right. Having given up that task, I switched to someone else... but that was even worse. Their tomboy-ish looks made it nearly impossible to do anything in post-work. It ended up looking like an entirely different person (and a man). I'm making the smart decision not to pursue that road (FWIW, it was Sophia Lillis). So yes, I'm sort of dead in the water. This weekend I want to commit more time to this since my subscriber count more than doubled and there are a lot of people on board now who at the very least expect me not to go on break again. Wouldn't want to disappoint anyone by merely giving up and leaving for a few weeks. I'll keep at it and figure something out.