Daki/ merch update... also delays (Patreon)

First and foremost - my merch found a home! I can't link to it publicly here so I'll make a separate post with the link. Instead of doing it by hand, which is super stressful and unreliable for my fans I decided to go with paw to press! Sorry for the delays... it's been a year in which a lot of things happened. A lot. But I digress...

As for the delays... I suffered some pretty bad setbacks that robbed me of my time and energy. I'm an anxious person. Nothing is ever easy and when I get hit with anything I get hit hard. It makes everything difficult and I don't know what else to say.

The short version of the most relevant part is that in the last few weeks I lost roughly... 20% of the support I usually got from Patreon both due to my lack of performance as well as the page suspension that caused a lot of the stress to begin with... which prompted me to take outside work again that was front loaded. I can recover from this but it's both humiliating and energy sapping. I also took a week to do Anthrocon which, in hindsight, may have been a bad idea afterall. It did help relieve some of the stress but it got in the way of art well and truly.

Then there are personal issues that wouldn't normally get in the way of work but definitely get in the way of art. Unfortunately I bound myself to art as a career path which means when I suffer my work suffer. That has nothing to do with people expecting art from me but because I'm not better at what I do the artwork suffers indeed.

I don't know what else to say other than I'm sorry.

This isn't like me and it goes against the expectations you have of me. I am reaching out for help and I will try to do better.