Reading a letter (and freaking out a little). (Patreon)

READ THIS BEFORE WATCHING THE VIDEO. Let me explain to you what's going on first. I got a letter from one of my old patrons by the name of Ace. In his letter he congratulates my on my first, one year anniversary on Patreon. Also Ace was kind enough to list the most memorable events that marked the past year... When I was reading the letter I thought that it would be fun to print it out an read it out loud while I'm walking to my live-drawing classes today. So I did that, and printed out the letter... But then found myself face to face with a serious problem: apparently I feel very uncomfortable walking down the street an reading a letter in English out-loud to myself while filming. And when I say "uncomfortable" I mean VERY UNCOMFORTABLE. I had to literally force myself to finally make myself do that... Had to use all sorts of mind tricks that I usually use when I'm afraid of doing something but I need to act despite that. It actually reminded me of that one time (long time ago) when I took too long to approach this one girl I thought was really cute. I hesitated for too long, and when I finally did approach her I was completely terrified. I managed to force myself to start talking to her only to realize that I was actually stuttering... 0_0 That's how terrified I was of talking to this one girl. Since then never in my life I was ever afraid to the point I would actually start to stutter... And also later on (days later) I confessed to the girl that I was scared to talk to her that first time and she confessed to me in turn that it was very foolish on my part since she thought I was handsome and all... (No, we never did get together or anything). That experience stuck with me throughout the years. I think because it made me I realize that sometimes the obstacles that may scare the crap out of me exist only in my head. And my life is hugely affected by the way I think the things are, not the way they actually are. I also realized that despite being completely imaginary the said obstacles could be as difficult to overcome as any other real thing, or even more difficult at times. And finally it taught me that if you know that the scare in just in your head, you can overcome it... Well, it's easier said then done, and not always I am able to muster enough courage... but I still try... So now, watch the video and see me freak out slightly throughout the whole thing. But hey, I still did it. Next one should be easier. Go write me another letter, Ace. The LINK: http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x2h2xgt_reading_creation