JOURNEY/道程 (Patreon)

Kokoro-chan, who originally weighed about 600 kilograms, gained nearly 300 kilograms over the summer and came to a weight of almost 900 kilograms. For a while, her weight remained around 890 kilograms, probably because the number of calories she burned and took in balanced out. But, as a result of eating a lot during seasonal holidays such as Halloween and Christmas, her weight ballooned to 935 kilograms.

When you're that big, it really is difficult to move. But that's the way Kokoro-chan is. She had already been walking around and exercising when she weighed 600 kilograms, so even when she reached 890 kilograms, she could still manage to waddle around, though the floor would creak underneath her. Nearly half a year later, even though she had gained even more weight, Kokoro-chan was able to walk more than double the distance she was able to before, both when using a cane or just on her own. She could even manage to ride the train all by herself, too. However, it's difficult for her to stand for 15 minutes or more, so she wouldn't get on the train when it was particularly crowded. If she did happen to stand for more than 15 minutes, she would start gasping and panting.

Today, she's taking a short train ride to visit a hot spring resort that she had been to before, back when she was thin. She had already sent her luggage there ahead of time. Her underwear alone was made up of ten times the amount of fabric that a normal person used to clothe their entire body, so her luggage was particularly huge. Because of that, it would've been difficult to manage. 

As Kokoro-chan hurriedly waddled towards the train car to make her transfer, her thick, heavy body attracted everyone's attention. Her face had gotten much more bloated, and the space that used to be there between her chin and collarbone was now filled in blubber, with the fat on her face and the fat of her neck meeting together. The fat on her face sagged down to her shoulders. Every time she moved her face, which was buried in lard that seemed to sag all over, the fat that was on her jaw, which also hung down and sagged to her neck, met with her face fat. As a result, the fat on her face seemed to stretch and pull like cheese whenever she moved. Her eyes and mouth tended to be a little squished due to all the fat on her cheeks, which had swollen up to the size where they now sagged down due to gravity, but it wasn't a problem. If anything, the problem was that the entire bottom of her field of vision was filled up by her face fat and breasts. Her glasses were custom-made for her, because her face had grown wider due to the increase in fat. Her face, accentuated by four blubbery chins, was no less magnificently fat than the rest of her body.

Her breasts were so enormous that even a girl who longed to have giant tits might recoil from their size. Just one of her breasts alone looks like it was big enough to fill up two whole bed blankets. Her breasts, which had grown so massively large that they still sagged and hung down even after being stuffed into a bra, sagged, swayed, and bounced with every ponderous step she took, her great cleavage on display. 

The belly beneath her flabby breasts was so huge that even if she were standing, it could reach the floor if she wasn't careful. It jutted forward and hung down low, proudly covering her crotch and her legs in blubber, in defiance of the usual elasticity in a typical young girl's skin and body. Her wonderful cellulite was as firm as bread dough, and her pores, which had grown larger due to her weight gain, dimpled her cellulite. Her belly, which probably weighed 250 kilograms or more at this point, was the part of her body that shook and jiggled the most and was therefore the parameter that reflected her emotions and energy. Even when she wore a skirt, her belly hung down so long out from the bottom of the skirt that she had to abandon the thought of her stomach being simply a part of her body like when she was skinny. 

Like her belly, her buttocks, which had also accumulated a lot of fat, had grown so vast that they stuck out to her sides, remaining easily visible even when you viewed Kokoro-chan from the front. And the shape of her figure remained the same when she was standing as it was when she sat, as if her flesh was elastic. Even when she's standing, her butt doesn't sag down like her stomach does. Rather, it juts out behind her, practically floating in the air. It jiggles and sways side to wide when she walks, easily attracting lots of attention from others.

The four chocolate coronets, or rather, her arms and legs, protruding from her massive body, were covered in lard, with all of her joints buried in blubber as a result of her body storing all the fat she had worked so hard to gain. The blubber piled up in rolls and rolls, hanging down, succumbing to gravity. Every time she moved her arms, her blubber dangled in the air. Her legs were hidden because of her belly fat, but she couldn't close her legs because of the increased amount of blubber on her legs. Even if she tried to open her legs wide in order to walk, the gap between them was filled with blubber. Even so, she's managed to walk with those legs for the time being, and she's been having a difficult time trying to prevent chafing of her inner thighs.

Every time she takes a step, the fat hanging all over her shook violently. That was the kind of figure that Hida Kokoro had right now.

"Wheeze, wheeze, hrk! Nngh, whew, I made it in time, somehow."

Thanks to the fact that there were only very few passengers around, Kokoro was able to take a seat without any hesitation. After all, a girl whose butt took up five whole seats would have a hard time finding a spot to sit. She remembered back when she was still thin, sitting down neatly, wearing an outfit similar to the one she had on now. She was dressed in a sweater and a skirt, with fluffy down jacket, which had a collar. She had black stockings and brown boots. Her hair was done up in a twin-tail style. She had only changed up how she wore her stockings now. She had to use more and more of them to cover up. Besides her legs, which had grown as thick as large trees, her belly, which hung down below her skirt, and her black panties, which partially covered her belly, were visible for all to see. 

Back when she was thin, she might have walked around a bit. But she didn't open her mouth as wide to breathe back then as she did now, her jaw fat shaking as she took in breaths. She thought that her spirits were lifted at the time because she was going to stay with friends. She still felt the same way now. But now she also had a stronger sense of accomplishment for going through the hard work of transferring trains.

Back when she was thin, all she had to do was simply walk along. But now, with her gigantic ass bouncing up and down, her belly hanging out from under her skirt, just barely above the ground, jostling from side to side, her fleshy arms jiggling and bobbing, waddling breathlessly onto the train for her transfer, she felt a sense of accomplishment. As she stopped to catch her breath, thinking about how she felt back in the past versus now, she got the feeling that a passenger sitting across from her was looking at her, while also looking at their phone screen. She didn't know if that person was a fan or not, but perhaps they were someone who knew her and were comparing the Kokoro they saw on the train with one on the phone, to see if she was the real thing. There was another article posted about her live performance recently, so maybe they were looking at that.

Kokoro was worried that she wasn't going to be able to move around satisfactorily on the stage now that her weight was over 900 kilograms, but thanks to the fact that her weight had been supported with some strong ropes hung from the ceiling, she was able to stand and sing, while feeling like her weight was reduced, like she was in a swimming pool. Her dancing was basically just waddling and wobbling, but she jiggled and shook her entire body, her arms, stomach, butt, and face, to the delight of the audience. 

Kokoro had become a minor idol after gaining weight, and as a result of going through experiences that she hadn't had back when she was skinny, like being told by fans directly that she was cute or pretty, she started to think that her current, almost inhuman body shape, which she initially would have thought looked like some kind of fat monster back when she was skinny, now seemed girlish and cute to her. She had a mixture of feelings, both that her old skinny self would probably have been repulsed by her current self, but also that she felt a sense of affirmation now, that she really was pretty and cute. As she opened her heart to accepting her now-bloated body, she felt that her feelings had matured, and she also felt a somewhat immoral, pervese arousal over it. 

Before she knew it, she was about five minutes from the station where she was supposed to disembark. Normally, she wouldn't have needed to stand up yet, but things were different for Kokoro right now. When she arrived at the station, there was a non-zero chance that she would end up being able to stand but not be able to get out the door and onto the platform in time. So, it was important for her to get standing with plenty of time to spare. 

She rocked her body back and forth a couple of times, and then used the momentum to get herself standing.

"Nggggghhhh!!"

Eyes squinted shut, she let out a shout. She struggled desperately to stand up, resisting the pull of gravity. She heard the sound of rips and tears in her stockings. The pressure of her fat trying to spill out from within her stockings must have been incredible. 

The passenger sitting across from her opened their eyes wide, dumbstruck. Kokoro wasn't sure how to feel about that. When she saw herself on video, she still felt amazed at her dignity. It was impossible not to feel the impact of a movements of a twin-tailed girl who was 160 centimeters tall and weighed 900 kilograms.

Kokoro, out of breath, managed to stand up and walk towards the door, waddling with her cane in hand, her body jiggling and swaying side to side, as the floor creaked beneath her. 

When she arrived at the door, she grabbed the bar attached to the side of the door with her left hand, and distributed the weight of her body as she walked, putting weight on her cane in her right hand. Even so, her weight was slowly draining her strength. Her breathing became a little more ragged. In an effort to try and take her mind off of things a little, she thought back to how it felt like when she got off at the station here before, when she came here long ago. She felt like she had probably been smiling and quietly humming a little tune to herself, standing there in a bouncy mood, waiting for the train to pull in. She couldn't exactly hum right now, but at least she could smile like she did back then. In fact, she was really looking forward to today. She gritted her teeth and tried her best to smile, while she was out of breath.

She could see her reflection in the glass part of the door. She saw a smiling face that was swollen with a massive amount of fat. A girl with twin-tails and breasts so big that they hung down to her sides. She was wondering if the breast area of her sweater had gotten particularly sweaty, and before she knew it, it was soaked with sweat.

Kokoro naturally thought that the version of her she saw reflected in the glass was even prettier than how she used to look. her face had grown many times larger than it used to be, and it was sagging with blubber. She thought it was a very pretty face, something that was just like her.

Her body and face looked completely different from how they used to back then, but she had the same smile on her face now that she had then. A smile that was full of fun and fulfillment.

Volunteer translator, "Ekkusu"

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元々600㎏程あった体重が、夏に300㎏近く激太りして900㎏近い体重になっていたこころちゃん。

しばらくは食事と消費のカロリーが均衡していたからか、890㎏台のままであったが、ハロウィンやクリスマスなど季節のイベントごとに食べに食べた結果935kg。

これだけ大きい体になると動く事そのものが難しいが、そこはこころちゃん。以前から600㎏程の体で歩き運動する生活を送っていたので、890㎏台になってもよちよちと床を軋ませながらなんとか歩くことができた。

それから半年近く、多少の増量があったとはいえ、今では自力で歩いていける距離も杖を使っていける距離も倍以上増えて、一人で電車に乗れるほどになった。

ただ、15分以上は立つのが厳しいので客が混雑してる時間帯は乗れないのであった。もし15分を過ぎると、声を出してあえいで立つはめになる。

今日は電車を少し乗りついで、痩せていた頃に行った温泉宿に向かっている。荷物は先に送っておいた。下着だけでも普通の体型の10倍以上の布を使うから持っていくとなると荷物の容量が大きくなってどうしようもないのだ。

よちよちと急ぎ足で乗り換えの電車に向かうこころ、その体重に見合った体はどこでも注目の的だった。

顔は肥大化し、かつてあった顎と鎖骨の間の空間が全て首と顔の一体化した脂肪で埋まっており、肩の部分まで顔と呼べる存在の肉が垂れている。

四方八方に垂れた顔の肉は動かすたびに、元々は首で今は分厚く垂れ下がった顎の下の脂肪が元々の顔であった肉の脂肪を引っ張り、その結果、顔の肉は動きに合わせてチーズのように伸びたり縮んだり見える。

目や口は重力で垂れ下がるほど増えた頬の肉で少し圧迫されがちだが問題はない、強いて言えば視界の下は全て顔の肉と胸で埋まってることが問題だろうか。

眼鏡は肉で顔幅が増えてしまったため特注になっている。

4重顎の脂肪でパンパンな顔は今の体に負けないほど立派に肥えている。

胸は巨乳になりたい女の子ですらドン引きするほどの大きさで、片方の胸だけでもベッド用毛布が2つは詰まったような大きさだ。

大きくなりすぎてブラジャーに詰めてもなお垂れ下がったこの胸は、歩くたびにゆさゆさと大きな谷間と共にドボンドボンと揺れる。

そのたわわな胸の下にある腹は、立っていても気を抜けば床に着地してしまうほど、巨大で、前に突き出て垂れ下がっており、若い女の子の肌や体の弾力など、ものともせずに堂々と足や股の上をその肉で覆いかぶさっている。

立派なセルライトは、まるでパンの生地のようにごわごわとしていて、肥大化により大きくなりすぎた毛穴がそのセルライトの上でぷつぷつと花開いていた。

おそらく250㎏以上の重さがある腹は、もっとも揺れが激しく、それゆえに彼女の感情や元気を反映するパラメーターにもなっている。

スカートをはいても下から大きく垂れ下がるので、痩せてた頃のお腹という部位の概念は他の体の部位以上に彼女は捨てなきゃいけなかった。

腹同様に、脂肪が蓄積された尻は正面から見ても常に体の横に突き出るほど肥大化しており、肉の弾力があるのか座っている時の肉の形状がそのまま残り、立っていても尻だけは腹のように垂れず、宙に浮いている。歩くとよく揺れるので人目を余計に集めやすかった。

その巨体から四方に出ているチョココロネ、もとい腕や足は、増えた脂肪を懸命に貯めようとした結果、あらゆる関節に肉がつき、幅が増え、肉は幾重にも重なり重力に負けて下に垂れ下がっている。腕は動かすたびに宙を肉がぶらんぶらんと揺れる。足は腹の肉で隠れて余り見えないが、増えた肉のせいで閉じることができないし、歩くために大きく股を開いて、がに股のような姿勢になっても、全てその隙間は肉で埋まっている。

それでも今のところはそれでなんとか歩けており、股ずれの防止に苦労している具合だ。

歩くたびに、体のいたるところから垂れ下がった脂肪がぶよぶよと激しく揺れる、それが今の肥田（ひだ）こころだった。

「ぐふっぐふーっ、くひぃーっ！よいしょっと、ふーなんとか間に合った」

乗客がとても少ないおかげで、躊躇することもなく座席に座ることが出来た。1人で5人分の座席を使うお尻の面積を持つ女の子は座るのにも一苦労だ。

まだ痩せていた頃、今着ている服と似たような服を着てちょこんと座ってたことを思い出す。

襟がふわふわのダウンジャケットの下にセーターとスカート、黒いストッキングに茶色のブーツという服装だった。髪型はツインテール

今はストッキングだけ使い方が変化している、ストッキングが覆っているものは増えていた、大木のように太くなった足以外にもスカートの下から垂れ下がって人目に見える腹と腹を覆う黒パンツだ。

その頃は少し歩いただけで今のように口を大きく開けて顎の肉を揺らしながら呼吸もしてないから、口をつぐんでいたかもしれない。

その時の気分は友達と泊まる事で高揚してたと思う。

今もそれは同じだが、電車を乗り換えるという重労働をやり遂げた達成感の方が強い。

あの頃はすたすた歩くだけで良かったが、今は大きなお尻を上下に振りながら、スカートの下から地面すれすれに垂れ下がった腹を左右に振って、肉が付いた二の腕をぶるんぶるんと揺らしながら、よちよちと息も絶え絶えに電車に乗り込むのだから達成感も出るというもの。

昔と今の気持ちに想いをはせながら、息を整えていると、向かい側に座っている乗客がスマホの画面を見ながらこちらを見ている気がする。

ファンかどうかはわからないが、こころの事を知っていて、本物かどうか見比べてるのかもしれない。最近もライブ活動をした記事が出ていたから、それを見ているかもしれない。

900㎏を超えた体重でステージの上で満足に動けるか不安だったが、天井から強力なロープで体重を支えることでプールみたいに重量感を減らして、立って歌う事が出来た。

よちよちダンスだが、腕も腹も尻も顔も体中ぶるんぶるん振ってお客を沸かした。

今のこころは太った後にマイナーなアイドルになって、直接ファンから、かわいいとか素敵とか痩せてた頃には経験しなかったことした結果、痩せてた頃であれば、脂肪の化物のような体形だと思ったであろう人間離れしている今の体型が、自分にとって女の子らしい、かわいい姿だと思えるようになった。

今の自分の行動の数々に、痩せている頃の自分であればドン引きするんだろうなという感情と、だけど素敵なんだからいいじゃないと肯定する感情が交じり合い、

肥大化した体型に心を開き直ることで気持ちの成長と背徳的な興奮を少し感じている。

気が付けば降りる駅まで、あと5分くらい。本来はまだ立たなくてもいいが、こころはそうもいかない。

駅に到着したら立つことはできてもドアからホームに出るのが間に合わない可能性がゼロではない。だから余裕をもって立つことが重要だ。

体を２，３回前後に大きく揺らして、その反動で体を起こす。

「ふんぎゅううううううっ!!」

目を細めて、声を出す。重力にあらがって立ち上がるために必死になる。

ブツッブツッとストッキングのいたるところから糸が切れる音がする。内からの肉の圧力がもの凄いのだろう。

向かい側に座ってる乗客が目を見開く。

その気持ちはわからなくはない。こころ自身が動画で自分の姿を見ると未だに貫禄が凄いと思う。

160㎝の身長に900㎏の体重のツインテールの女の子の動作にインパクトを感じるなというほうが無理だ。

息切れを起こしつつもなんとか立ち上がると、歩行杖を片手に、床から若干軋むような音を出しつつもドスドス、よたよたと体を左右に振ってドアまで歩き出す。

ドアの前に到着するとドアの横についている棒を左手で掴み、体重の重さを右手の歩行杖と共に分散させる。

それでも自重の重さは少しづつ体力を削っていく。息も少しづつ荒くなっていく。

少し気分転換しようと、昔ここで乗った時は降りるときにどんな感じだったか思い返す。

たしか、笑顔で小さな鼻歌を歌っていたかもしれない、るんるんな雰囲気で立っていて、駅に到着するのを待っていた気がする。　　　　　

今は鼻歌をする余裕はないが、あの時と同じように笑顔くらいならできる。実際、今日は楽しみなのだから。

歯を食いしばって息を切らしながら笑顔になってみる。

大量の脂肪でぶよぶよに膨れ上がった大きな顔の笑顔に、ツインテールで胸が八の字に垂れ下がるほど爆乳の女の子がドアのガラスに反射して見える。

セーターの乳房の部分が特に汗をかいているのだろうか、いつのまにか濡れている。

ガラスに映った私は、あの頃より可愛いと自然に思う。以前の顔より何倍にも大きくなってぶよぶよに垂れ下がってしまっている顔。

とても私らしい素敵な顔だと思った。

あの頃とはまったく違う、見違えるような身体に顔、あの頃の笑顔と同じ、楽しみで充実してる笑顔がそこに映っていた。