Some thoughts (Patreon)

Some thoughts, just because I need to say it somewhere, or I'll go crazy.

As you noticed, I can draw very fast. I've made so many fanarts, it's insane. But for some reason, I can't do the same thing with commissions. I'm very confident while drawing those "sketch" arts, but when I'm drawing a commission I'm getting stuck. I don't know why, but I think I'm still getting nervous while drawing something that was paid for. And I'm angry that this thing bugs me so much, I don't know how to deal with it and this makes me angrier. 

I love drawing commissions, and I always want to push myself 100% to make it better every time. But every new day I look at one commission I see new mistakes that I want to fix. And this makes me draw one commission for 2-3 weeks, and this also makes me angrier at myself because I don't want to make people wait. 

Sorry for all this wining, I'll try to deal with it somehow. I just wanted to speak out.