Life Update + Future of Patreon (Patreon)

Hey guys! I am so terribly sorry for the radio silence over the last few weeks. I know my updates have dwindled and my patreon exclusive illustrations have pretty much stopped completely. I have a few pieces in progress that I've promised but haven't gotten around to finishing yet. I promise I am still working on them, but they will definitely be on hold for a while longer.

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This whole year has been one train wreck after another for me and its gotten to the point where I can feel I am approaching a huge mental breakdown that is honestly way overdue. At the beginning of the year, my grandmother passed from cancer, it was very sudden and we didn't make it to the hospital in time to say goodbye. She raised me as a child and it hurt pretty bad, but I have a hard time expressing my emotions so I bottled it up for another day. At the start of September, I was suddenly informed that my abusive father had passed away from an aneurism and that side of the family was desperately trying to get my attention. It dredged up a lot of terrible memories and the idea of never being able to get my closure with our relationship shook me up pretty hard. Not more than a month later, my aunt's best friend of 40 years, who was like a second aunt to me, passed away in her sleep. It was quite upsetting for me, but was the final straw for my aunt, having just lost her mother, brother and now sister all in the same year. She attempted suicide and has been on watch ever since. As if I needed another headache and heartache on my plate, my mother informed me about a month ago that she is planning to divorce my stepfather and that the situation was not very amicable. So now I'm being put in that uncomfortable situation of having to choose a side, even though I don't want to.

On top of everything above, a couple months ago, our roommate decided that she was suddenly going to leave us in January to move in with her new boyfriend, a move that we had never discussed and are super financially not prepared for. 

So, on top of all of my life shit, I now have this new move to deal with. If anyone is familiar with the rent in California, a 1 bedroom apartment in my area is around $2200 a month, which is actually considered a steal to most. To help gather funds I have been job hunting and am currently working full time as a production artist and saving every single cent I can. This job is seasonal so after the holidays I am fearful of how I will survive. I can scrape by with commissions but I worry about everything becoming too much for me to handle...

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For the important stuff start here:

I am writing all of this down so you guys can get a little picture into what I have been going through and why I've been so distant lately. I'm at my limit and with a breakdown still on the horizon, I am unsure what to do at this point. But I think the added pressure of maintaining this Patreon the way I have been is too much, so there will be some changes....

Starting January, this Patreon will be on hiatus for a while. I will cease all charges and may go so far as to close all my current tiers so I can revamp them during the hiatus. I sincerely appreciate all of the support, and at such a crucial time, losing out on this stream of income probably isn't the smartest move, but I feel like, for the amount of money you all pay, I have to do something. 

I will most likely reopen with a single $3 or $5 tier that will have the only added benefits of early access to work, WIPs, commissions, and streams. I will also finally open up my discord that i have been building, having a special channel for Patreons, but also being available to the public in general.

As far as my exclusive illustrations go, i will still do those at my leisure and you guys will get first access to them and still be able to vote on them, but I will also be offering them up after a little while on my gumroad for a flat fee. This way people won't feel pressured to join my patreon just so they can see Monster Hunter cock haha

I hope you guys aren't too bummed out by the changes that are coming, but I need Patreon to be a labor of love, not something i feel pressured to do anymore. There will still be free art and polls and hopefully more streaming and general interaction with the new discord. If you guys resubscribe to me and want to sub for more than the baseline, i would still be super appreciative, but I want everyone to have access without feeling like they have to pay more for more stuff.

tl;dr: Changes are coming and the patreon will be on hiatus throughout January

Thanks for reading!!