I need to start sketching and searching more (Patreon)

I have a dilema for a while now, but this dilema has been very sucessfully hidden behind a wall of work I have to do to keep afloat (commissions I mean). I feel I'm going somehwere I'm not sure I wanna go with my style.

I know this is probably a surprise to most, but I hate how clean my style has become. I was always a perfectionist freak when it comes to my art (I always made my lines extremely clean, yuk), but I am taking it places I don't want to go.

I'm doing some research for new pencil and textured brushes to maybe force me out of my comfort zone with the tidyness. Once I put a decent set of pencil and textured brushes together I will post it here for anyone interested in downloading them and trying them out.
These wil be posted as free for all, since I will be using brushes I find online for free ^^

So I really hope to find some time maybe daily, maybe once every 2 days to try and sketch something, to try and practice making my lines a bit more rough around the edges and more artistic and loose overall. Not to mention I really need to practice merging colors and messing around with color palettes. The grayscale shading technique is great and useful, but it sort of takes away the color using skills from me.

 I will be posting these sketches  available for the Catfish tier+ and I hope to get your feedback on them :)