Vent.. (Patreon)

Hey everybody, I just want to get a few things off my chest.

One being how incredible it is to see 40 of you supporting my work, It makes my heart jump everytime I see that number. I appreciate every single one of you guys, the ones who are just joining and the ones who've stuck around since the begining, Just want to give you a big huge thanks for seeing me along my artistic journy, 

two unfortunatly is a bit more serious, I honestly dont know where to begin so pardon me if if sound like a broken record. In all the years ive been creating and sharing art online I never onced opened up to my followers and watchers, My severe anxieties often prevent me from reaching out to anyone really. But the last few months my mental health has taken a steep decline. I've been going through some of the worst depression I've ever had to face in my life and its affecting the quality of my work, and that breaks my heart.

I've been gradually loosing more and more sleep over the last few months now, to where a good nights rest is anything over 4 hours. I also feel like I have been neglecting my patrons and clients mostly in part of my severe lack of experience to run a patron and how to freelance. I feel disconnected from my followers and lost and confused as an artist, and im not sure how to move forward. I feel like I'm stalling as an artist. 

I don't have much else to say other than I'm struggling, I'm struggling quite a lot. I hope you all understand, I'm sorry If my content starts to slow down, or that the quality starts to dip, I'm tryin my best to pull myself out of this depression, but this fight as been exhausting. Thank you for reading through if you have, I hope my ramblings doesnt take too much decoding to get through. I hope in the future I can bring everyone here the high quality content and art I imagined I would. everyone here deserves the best.