VERY IMPORTANT Update - September 2 2020 (Patreon)

Hello my dear followers, as you may noticed, once again i been slowing doing on updates (at least the ones i am allowed to post here on Patreon), this is because i am struggling with issues with my anxiety, working on commissions again (one at the time due to inability and, in all honestly, previous lack of will to finish due to depression) and current health issues (NOT related to COVID-19 thankfully), i am very sorry about this.

I understand that on these rough times, you might want to spend your money or support somewhere else, if you are willing to keep supporting me, you can do it trough either SubscribeStar or even Pixiv Fanbox'', however due to recent events, i have some thinking lately, and i came up with a resolution with my dreams, i have decided that by 2021, if i am still alive and come trough this rough year, i will close my patreon account, probably (to being honest, i been planning on moving out entirely to either SubscribeStar or Fanbox completely, but the big issue for me, is the fact that most of my income comes from Patreon, also that not many followers have the patience to keep with me due to my sporadic updates, the preference towards certain type of material i work trough that people like, and overall the depressing sense of conformity and familiarity of supporting this platform, (this is not an insult towards any of my supporters, current and former), but in all honesty, after being nearly 3 years on this platform, my biggest dream was to reach a large fan-base and being able to make a living due to the thing i love the most, drawing pinups and erotic art, however, as i am reaching 35 years old this year, i realized that unfortunately things weren't so full fulling as i expected them to be, particularly due to many reasons.

Censorship, too many options, having to constantly keep up with material and trying to look for a mid time job in real life to help myself and my family, however this was not something that really happened, and sadly due to the recent events, i have to focus myself of living life while staying safe and worrying less about my works, and thus and despite my best of intentions, i been developing certain issues, i failed to drop weight that i wish to not have (i have one co-morbidity of being obese) and my already existing sleeping issues have worsen even further, to the point that sometimes i cannot sleep well at all during all night until late hours of morning at even 9 AM! and had to sleep up until 5 PM!, due to also having to deal with 2 individuals that i live with and dont take the pandemic serious, and living in the worst possible country full of cucks and people bending over social justice and communism and the disinformation given by our health officials regurgitated from certain corrupt health organizations, and i am not talking about the U.S,

At this point i been thinking, is this what i wanted to keep doing?

My wish is to retire from all of this at 40 years old and dedicate myself to enjoy life and fulfill my dreams, and one of them has showed up to me recently, since i discovered something that will allow me to accomplish such task, but i will have to dedicate myself at 75% time to such new goal that i will have less time to do works and probably will end commission altogether (its a possibility, but not set fully in stone), and considering that working on pinups has been my job for the last couple of years as my only source of income, both in commissions and works, i need to cut some of it in order to fulfill these new ideas i have in mind, in the past, i even tried to do something similar, but never could afford to do so, due to my barrier of drawing ability, occasional laziness, i am not going to deny it, not having the peace of mind due to living in a toxic environment around my house, and lack of time, due to people not caring truly and leaving if i dont post at least weekly a new picture, yes, it has happen, i will not mention any names out of respect, but i been known people doing such sort of stuff, and that was such a factor that demotivated me in keeping up with work and many times, and i am not going to deny, i am really not a good artist, in fact, i am ashamed of my line of work, only trough recent years since late 2018 i became decent, but i been drawing since 2013, and my earlier works were such a hideous disaster, and i look at the time it took me to be half decent to actually being okay-ish, to actually being good, took me 5 years and a half to do so, that is not something i am proud of, i am a slow person, and i feel stupid because of it.

Sorry if it sounds like i am being whiny and ungrateful to all my loyal followers and subscribers and my very good friends that have been with me during these years, good bunch of em were the only friends i have when i needed the most, and that is something i will never be ungrateful about.

So to summarize, i will be slowly in updates these last year quarter so may only be posting 3 pictures here on Patreon in a month, so please, i am only asking you, just to be a tiny bit more patience with me, unless of of course you prefer supporting me in my other platforms of income, and No, dont expect always an update a week, that is my reality, we can work this out all of us, i also probably ending commissions next year, this last year have been very and i been pretty awful on commission delivery, yes i gotten a bit better since last month, but i am afraid that might not last, and i had a very bad reach during some months, and that i cannot find the will to finish a commission but i always had this burden in my heart that i had to finish it, and sometimes my work doesn't come off as good compared to my regular line of work, and i been disappointing some people and clashin with others, but let me be clear for the record, I HAVE NEVER RUN AWAY WITH PEOPLE'S MONEY, i always delivered commissions at the end of the day, even if some users have refused to pay me back, i been scammed even by some of em, on top of it all, this year i lost a very dear and important person for my and another person close to me that i will not name, and he was not only one person who offer me kindness when no one else did, he was also, in all honesty, my only friend, and the only person willing to help me, and even make me feel appreciated for my in real life work of takin care of a person close to me, when nobody in my family did so except perhaps for one, and yes, as little as he could, that person even helped me us monetarily, and now that he is no longer with us, we have almost nothing, and THIS is all i have, and i will not lie, my biggest dream was to become a super popular NSFW artist and making more then 250 USD a month to at least had some income for helpin myself and my family while still focusing on finding a real job to socialize and being able to developed myself as an adult, and maybe even become popular as an artists while underground to make a living and protect my identity to the public, but with the current draconian censorship going up on most internet website due to the people running them being either in cahoots with  the commies or just as simply as virtue signaling, bending the knee, spread their asses, and trowing people under the bus for having a different opinion or just asking questions..........well, it leas to a very Grimm panorama not just for me.

As such, i no longer feel secure and safe continuing using this platform as a mean of income, or at the very least when it comes to my work as an NSFW artist, also its gonna be very difficult for me once a person who left my side comes back, and while i need that person and i care for  and love, i had to clash sometimes with its personality and issues.

As such, i plan to no longer use Patreon for the sake of income regarding my erotic artworks, but i need to wait until most of you are willing to completely switch over to my new platforms for such, when updates will be 2 times a month at the very least, probably 3, no less, due to having to focus on my new responsibility, and my new goal in life.

However, as a result of this, i will work on something new, something that WILL BE DONE, ill let you know once i have part of it done, which could take me 2 months or maybe the rest of the year, and i am gonna need your support.

On a good note, since last month, i started to stream again, but this time i been joining the bandwaggon and streaming video game related stuff to help me out, however while i do, i want you to spread the word and help me out, i jumped into dangerous territory and opened a twitch account. https://www.twitch.tv/shinpepi

But i also plan to go back to Picarto as well or even on Youtube, when i plan to stream at the very least twice a month, or once at the very minimum, but all i am asking is, to people to care, back in may i made a special video dedicated to one trend going on, AND NOBODY WATCHED IT!, that i am going to be direct, was disheartening

I hope this changes in the future, and i hope i can accomplish this task.

Afterwards and accomplishing this new goals which could well take me a couple of years, i probably keep one last year of drawing, and then before i reach 38-39, i will retire from drawing NSFW.

Of course, depending of how things go, things can change and, it depends.

That is all my friends, thank you for listening to me, and thank you for being so kind to me and supporting me over this years.

Best Wishes, Pepipopo