April 2023 Patreon Announcements (Patreon)

April is here, and for what it's worth, i don't participate in april 1st shenanigans (at least this year ;D )

April's Theme is Somnophilia/Sleeping! I will go into this a bit more in the coming poll post.

January 2023's fills will be going into the Access to the Past Tiers!

April 2021's fills will be going up on my pixiv and social medias! As per usual, I'll bulk upload everything onto my drive and pixiv, and spread them out individually over the course of the week on twitter/tumblr.

Commission Status: Probably not gonna be open for a bit! I still owe a handful, and I don't want to reopen til they are done (unless there's an emergency).

Now for the rambly bits!

Despite the nice vacation i went on with my grandpa at the start, march has been sorta rough. Had to get my tablet replaced (which was done easily thanks to a friend), which ended up in a lot of missed opportunities for work.

Also have to deal with other happenings, such as the boyfriend having to deal with health stuff that we still have fingers crossed for... so not a great month for the art front!

The time unable to draw has definitely had me thinking, because the past couple years i've been very dissatisfied with certain things, such as the state of social media. Engagement definitely helps keep me going, but it feels like im not getting enough of that to keep my spark going. As a result, it always feels like an unrewarding energy sink to even use my social media accounts, hence why i'm rarely on them these days.

I def feel like I need to return to doing things that are just Fun For Me. But that's also very difficult without running into problems that make those energy sinks too. And it always feels like I'm being told to "do more work" to fix my problems when "doing more work" is exactly the thing I can't do at this point of my life.

What's the solution to this? No idea. It always feels like a lot of it is outside my control or scope of influence, and i'm too emotionally unavailable to dp anything fancy other than hang on til something cool happens.

Granted, winter is still going, so this might just be the culmination of winter depression, as is my yearly to-do, so i might bounce back once it stops raining all the damn time. But we'll see!

Anyway, thanks you guys for your support and patience! Hopefully April is kind to all of us.