small fansign + general update ! (UPDATED) (Patreon)

UPDATE: I went to the doctor 2 more times since this post and the issue is slowly getting fixed, fansigns will be held off until I can do them! Thank you guys so much for the kind messages and I hope to be back to cosplaying very very soon!!

Happy 2024! I hope you guys are doing well so far this year! The beginning of the year is always a mixed time, on one hand it's super cold and gloomy out... But on the other, you're inspired to do better than the year before. Overall, January has been ok for me!

I wanted to give you guys some small life updates, as well as a fansign update as well!

Firstly, January fansigns will be done this weekend!! So technically they'll be more on time than usual, lol. I have so many new cosplays guys, I'm excited to show you all!!<33

Secondly, I wanted to give you guys a small health update because I feel I need to share this with you all for some clarity & I honestly feel the need to be open with you guys about this.

The other night (1/30) I went to the ER... The later half of January I was having some troubles with my health which were affecting my day to day life as well as my mental health. Now, I have a pretty high pain and un-comfortability tolerance. In fact, I've always been that person that refuses to go to the doctor whenever I have any pain or health issues, and the same can be said about my mental health. I'm a very strong person and I'm very good at grounding myself when I experience anxiety or depression, it's how I've always been for the most part. I am NOT one to talk about my struggles or anything because honestly it doesn't really do much for me lol. But this past week and a half has been absolute hell, health wise and mental health wise. I don't want to get into specifics because in all honesty we still don't know what it is, even after going to the ER and getting multiple tests done lol. To my knowledge it's nothing serious (I still feel scared saying that lol) and they've ruled out the things I was most scared of. But still, I'm having health issues still and they don't seem to be going away.

All of this to say, I'm sorry for being the most inactive I've ever been this January. I always apologize for it and most of the time it's due to life, being busy, having family/work/school things in the way. Which I think are understandable and I don't feel too bad about, you guys have always been understanding and comforting lol. But I wanted to be transparent about this month and be completely honest about what's been going on in my life because I feel you guys should know. I'm not sure when this issue will go away or if it will, and of course I'll give small updates in regards to this because I don't want to worry anyone. I will try to cosplay more because I desperately want to. I have so many new cosplays, some you guys have bought me and some I've purchased myself. I look at them every day and want to do them but the anxiety of the pain/uncomfortableness I've been experiencing suddenly makes me bed ridden again and the cycle continues. That's not to say I can't do anything, I totally can... it's just hard, I guess? It's difficult and I just know it'll make content slow until I can figure out how to deal with it or it simply goes away on its own.

ANYWAYYY, that's kind of it from me. Per usual, thank you guys for supporting me and always being there for me, I can't believe I still have a platform in 2024 lmao... It's insane. Thank you guys for everything and honestly the most I want from you guys is prayers or good thoughts. Aaaaandddd.... on the bright side, I do have some photoshoots planned this month! So hopefully I can attend them, I miss cosplaying sm :,)