Apology (Patreon)

I am sorry.

I believe that ASMR should be a community dedicated to trust, safety, and healing. I have broken that trust, violated people’s safety, and hurt, rather than heal – all through lies.

I acknowledge what I did wrong, recognise the pain it has caused, and accept blame for what I did. I lied to my wife, lied to the people who I hurt, lied to the community, lied to myself, and I lied to you.

By now everything I have ever said or done has been shared online. We live in an age where people cannot get away with this kind of behaviour, and that is a good thing. I deserve this. If you ever notice behaviour like this in yourself or others, please ask for help.

With the support of my wife, I am currently receiving that help. And with the support of those who I have hurt, and members of the community I have written to or who have reached out, I am working to make amends for the wrongs that I have done.

I am so sorry to everyone I have hurt. Everyone I have wronged. Everyone I have lied to. And everyone I have let down. I am sorry to you.

My first priority is my wife, who, despite everything, has stood beside me and supported me through this. She loves me, and I love her. All I can do is change for the better and make that change real through what I do from this point forward. And that is to make amends.

It will be a long journey, but I hope that you will join me on it, so that together we can realise the mistakes we make don’t define us, but how we correct them does.

I believe that ASMR should be a community dedicated to trust, safety, and healing. I want to rebuild that trust with you, feel safe again, and get the help I need to heal, so that I can help others to heal too. So that I can eventually forgive myself.

I will be donating January’s payments to a mental health charity. I appreciate that those of you who have stood by me during all of this have donated your money to support the content I create, and with your continued support, that content is something I intend to keep creating.

Thank you.