Back from break (Patreon)

TLDR: I'm taking back what I said before and would be doing fan lewds again.

Long ass explanation, but I feel I need to properly give a reason for my stagnation.

I've also been back from my break since the start of this month like I promised. I just needed to finish some work to finalize my thoughts.

Explanation

When people take breaks, they usually come back fully motivated to work again, right?
For me, I didn't feel any different. In fact, at the last days of my break I just didn't feel any motivation to do anything, not even play games or whatnot.
Which is actually what I suspected would happen hence I've always refrained from taking long breaks. I mainly did so now to confirm that suspicion.

I think what that shows is I don't really have a strong burning desire to draw. Like when an artist gets inspired by an idea, they get a lot of motivation to dedicate all their time to make it a reality.
I'm not saying I'm not passionate about what I create though. My passion/motivation is just on a flat level rather than fluctuating whenever an artist gets inspired.

Honestly, I should have known that about myself.
It's obvious I've slowed down with the amount of work I've made for a pretty long time now. The best way I can explain that is I tried exploring my artistic side more, but ultimately found nothing. I didn't actually need to change anything.

What I mean about finding nothing is I don't actually have a specific thing I want to do. I'm equally passionate about fan lewds or original works. You could also say I just want to do them all.
This also means I'm equally dispassionate about any work I do. I don't think I'll have the capacity to just enslave myself to one project until it's fully complete, I would rather have multiple projects I can bounce around whenever I get tired of a specific one.
This does mean my progress would be slower compared to just focusing on one, but this is what I gotta do to keep myself content.

Plans

If I don't actually have a preference on what I work on, I'm just going to commit to doing fan lewds again. I would rather force myself to do something rather than be lenient and end up not doing anything.

I would still be doing the Nono project though. I've been simultaneously working on a fan lewd and a new Nono animation along with content for my game patreon this month.
The problem with games is there's a lot of initial work needed before a proper build would be available. It's also common to alter game ideas before it could be tested.
It's not actually great content for patreon as it would be a while before I can deliver consistent releases with it. Doing fan lewds would fill that gap.

If you're asking why don't I just stick to 1 patreon so I don't need to worry about consistently releasing content here:
If I have any mission statement in my life, it would be to be different. Just the simple fact that most artist don't have 2 patreons is enough reason for me to do it.

Anyway, I would loosely be trying to do 1 fan lewd a month, but I'm not gonna force it so I don't feel bad if I'm not able to fulfill. I would just be doing as much as I can.
I would also be privately working on the Nono project until I'm ready to actually show something.