TL;DR I'm Still Alive, Feel Free to Skip This (Patreon)

So, felt like I'd lost control over my life for the past

two months.  Anxiety and depression got a hold of me due to a lot of

factors: mom's having to get her uterus removed (thankfully they didn't

have to remove her ovaries and cervix as well like originally planned)

and consequently having to get a c section; as an addendum to that,

waking up every 6 and sometimes 4 hours because she forgets to take her

pain medication on time, so having to attend her and not getting regular

sleep; and escaping far too deeply into Fallout 4 to cope with the

stress, all while the weight of my debts and responsibilities I'm

forsaking grow heavier and heavier.  Well, as Illaoi preaches as she

caves my teeth in, "Move, or die."  I can't afford to stagnate like

this, not if I want to live.  Too many in my family have died to stroke,

blood clots in the legs moving to the brain from lack of motion, I

can't let that be my fate, not to mention stillness only accelerates

death as the perception of time shrinks due to the mind going

unchallenged and being left to rust.  SO!  The plan is to find my

motion, and as the crushing weight of my debts, sins, and

responsibilities are caused my many, many small, cumulative grievances,

it will take many, many small, cumulative adjustments to be well again. 

I cannot despair like this, not when you all are supporting me.  So

thank you, all of you.

First on the list, clean this fucking

room; second on this list, reschedule my doctor's appointment for the

potential liver biopsy and to refill my long overdue prescription for

depression meds; finally, brew some coffee and get started on doodling

an idea for Onion.