Keep Up (Patreon)

Over the past three weeks (or longer) I've started and then dropped several stories. I haven't been able to see something through to completion, with the exception of BEads, which I started and wrote all in one evening (the fact that it was timed with Mardi Gras helped inspire me).

As more time goes between actual stories posted I feel even more worthless, and that makes it harder to sit down and write something. It's a bad snowball effect.

I started this months ago, writing a couple thousand words (of which a small fraction makes their way here). I came back to it a couple days ago, trying to salvage what I had written even though my plans for the concept had changed. I don't know if you've ever tried to shove in a new spin on preexisting material, but it is not easy. Or necessarily the best idea.

Maybe I'm being too hard on myself, but I'm not that satisfied with this. If it feels like it ends too soon, that's because I didn't want to force myself to keep going with this while other stories need to be written, nor do I want it sitting by for another few months before I can come back to it.

But I'm not dead, just so you know.