I'm Sorry (Patreon)

Digging out the old assets for this one.

I wish I had more to offer for this update, but I don't. I'm no closer to finishing the next video than I was three weeks ago. My mind has been darting between multiple projects that all have different timeframes, trying to make sure everything is ready and orderly but the end result is that I've just been unable to focus. 

Furthermore, I spent most of February in Rochester helping my wife clean up the hoarder's den that her father had made of her home, and not only was it more of a daunting task than I had first expected (this was the kind of thing a full crew was needed for) I also hurt myself and slipped a disc in my back, sprained my leg, and got a bacterial infection from having to sleep there while we were cleaning. And the pain hasn't helped my inability to focus.

To make matters worse, Patreon never sent through this month's payment and is ignoring my tickets, so I didn't even get paid this month.

Couple that with a bunch of IRL garbage that all cropped up at the same time, and one of my worst abusers continuing to shriek and slander me at every possible opportunity and I have made absolutely no progress.

I know everyone who comments will say "We'll wait" but going weeks without a new upload has always come with lost patrons, and I don't make enough where I can keep eating that loss forever. But I also can't make my brain shut up and focus on one thing. 

I'm sure medicine for my ADHD would fix half my issues, but the problem is finding a doctor in Nova Scotia who will actually prescribe it. And those are extremely difficult to find. Even if you find a doctor taking patients, they can just refuse your request. I've gone through three physicians because they refused to renew my hormones and that was the only thing I even needed them for.

I am exhausted, sick, in pain, and I can barely focus on writing this. And I know people will say "take a vacation."

I can't afford it.

All this is to say a new video might not be coming for a while.