Hello Patreon, my old friend (Patreon)

I've come to talk with you again.

Hey guys it's been a while so I thought I'd fill folks in with what's been happening with me.  This first bit is kind of bit heavy and personal so feel free to skip over it if you want!

After the Mayternity drive ealier this year which was in aid of helping me afford an ADHD diagnosis I was in fact diagnosed with ADHD. It's the predominantly innatentive type of ADHD which honestly explains so much.

Following the diagnosis I had a lot of thoughts and feeling as I came to terms with it all. Feelings of relief and validation knowing that there was actually a reason I'm a broken worthless fuck up. Sadness and mourning for a lifetime of missed opportunites and wasted potential. Anger and frustration towards those who should have been there for me but weren't. I know it's futile to dwell on 'what if's' but it's been difficult reconciling the fact that while growing up every adult in my life, parents, teachers, health professionals, they all failed to see how much I struggled or ignored me when I asked for help. It's been hard not to feel at least a small amount of bitterness.

But looking forward, most importantly, it is treatable and there is hope.

My treatment so far has been a rollercoaster. The titration process of finding a medication that works for me is still on going and I've been on and off a few different medications trying to find the right drug and dosage.

It hasn't helped that the UK has been experiencing a nationwide shortage of ADHD medication due to the result of outstanding mismanagement by the UK government but I won't go into all that. The drug shortage has resulted in me missing out of dosages for weeks at a time and since stocks are having to be imported from the US, the prices I'm paying have tripled in cost D:

Despite all that though the medication I am currently taking seems quite promissing and I have been feeling a significant improvement with my ability to focus and manage my impulsivity better! I'm scheduled to increase the dosage next week so hopefully things will continue to improve!

So yeah, unfortunately my productivity has been lacking and kind of all over the place these past several months but things are feeling as if they're getting better. Hopefully as my medication stabilises my output will stabilise a bit too!

What HAVE I been doing though?

The long promised 'Salt & Pepper' comic rework is progressing slowly but surely.

It all started off kind of as quick horny throwaway comic but I kind of fell in love with the characters the more I played around with them. I really wanted to do something more with them than just random weird lewd stuff (as fun as it is.)

It took a while but I think I've finally settled on a really fun and interesting story to tell and I can't wait to share it with you all! (Don't worry it's still gonna be ridiculously lewd!)

I have a script for the first issue written up with many more issues planned and have even begun drafting out pages!

I've also still been making sketches and practice doodles. You'll be able to see all of them and some in the GIGA SKETCH DUMP I'm about to post. There's like 50 pages with multiple sketches on each page. Well over 100 sketches! (I actually already posted these on Discord last week but I'm sure anyone even noticed)

I managed to build up this huge backlog of sketches because I worry about posting so much rough unfinished stuff. I'm always telling myself I'll go back and finish these sketches, colour them and make them nice but I always forget. (I'm gonna blame ADHD brain for this too lol)

Going forward, if people are OK with it, I'll try and just post stuff like this finished or not.

I've been learning Blender (again)

Thanks to my new found ability to focus somewhat I picked up learning modelling and animation in Blender again. I've been posting my progress on Discord and Twitter but I'll be making a post here soon too for those that may be interested.

I still have a lot of learning to do but I already have some ideas for 3D animations I'd like to try and make in the near future...

I'm opening up for commissions!

After literally a decade of procrastination I have finally put together a commission sheet and a nifty submission form! The reason for suddenly opening up is due to the ongoing UK wide ADHD drug shortage. The monthly cost for my medication over the past few months unexpectedly trippled so I'm hoping to earn a little extra where I can to help with that.

If a commission is something you might be interested please take a look here:  https://www.patreon.com/posts/commissions-open-94045625 

Phew! I think that about covers things. Thank you all so much for your patience during the past several months. I know I've said this many times, but I do hope I'll be back to posting stuff more frequently. Things have changed this time. I have theraputic levels of meth in my system!

Thanks for reading!

- Patch