Workin on more! & Love y’all ^~^ (Patreon)

Hiiii everyone! I hope you enjoy the recent content! I’m gonna be trying to make lots more as quick and as best as I can c: I love y’all so much and I hope to make this patreon very fun! And I figure, that daily-ish 7mih could make it exactly that!

Thank you all for another month of your support!! It means so much that you all believe in me!! I’ll try my very best to make lots of wonderful content!!

I had a bit of a sad start to the day but the audios actually helped a bit to distract! I’m doing a little better now! How have you been? Are you taking care of yourself? Properly? Hmmm.. just making sure.

I know first hand how easy it is to get caught up in life and put yourself below other prios but please make sure to remember that you’re special too!! You mean a heck of a lot to me and I hope if you’re feeling down you’ll be able to feel a little less so after some audios! I will deffo be making some comforts in between the 7mih c: since I love comforts most of all!

I always try and read all the comments so if you feel like commenting I’d always love to hear from you! Thank you again for being so kind to me!

Recently I’ve been trying to find inspiration from writing, been working on a story that I’d rewrite every so often which I don’t mind sharing, though it’s not nsfw or anything. I usually don’t write nsfw because I feel like it’s ironically quite a difficult medium sometimes.

Though since all the audios are improv I guess I am prone to just making things up as I go which can be tricky in writing somewhat! Also cause writing is something that usually comes from my dreams! I have extremely vivid dreams which I’ll often write about! They range from dark stories of tragic protags, to very odd or silly ones if I’m honest! Though I’ve never had a nsfw dream cause if something like that happens I would just shoot out of my sleep.

(I remember one time a doctor guy in my dream tried to hit on me and I put on my best surprised pikachu face and promptly shot out of my sleep without a second though in pure shock.)

It’s kind of funny, I bet a lot of people probably think I got a dirty mind, but in truth I just don’t really at all. Probably due to being ace but also I just don’t think I’m a very sexual person in my nature. Though I guess it helps in being able to really objectively look at audios and try and improve them sometimes c:

You ever just wonder if things will really be ok? I sometimes think I’ve messed up too much and it won’t but I try and bounce back with effort and hard work. I’ll admit sometimes I do look at the numbers of things and how they go down and get scared. Though it’s not about the money, it’s about the trust. I always cherished trust and kindness above everything else, and I feel like sometimes due to the mean things said I’ve lost a lot of that, I feel like im washed up sometimes and I’ll end up reclusing in my little recording area and just sitting in silence. Sometimes it’s hours, sometimes it’s not long at all. It’s strange really, because it feels so surreal that any of this ever happened to begin with. I never set out to be a creator, don’t get me wrong, I love being one for the most part. It’s just I think I’ve never been the type cut out for it.

I’m way too sensitive to mean things, because I sometimes have trouble separating myself from my work so I end up feeling like I’m some villain in someone’s story and I feel honestly really sad and worried when I think of it so I try not to. I try really hard to not look back because I sometimes am guilty of the “why didn’t I do this” kind of thing. I don’t like when I get in my head about it but sometimes it’s hard not to.

I think I just gotta focus on today and tomorrow, I know sometimes it may seem like I’m a bit sad but I’m ok. It’s not too much for me to handle, and I think I’m getting better. Y’all have saved me so many times you probably will never know, but thank you for believing in me and supporting my attempts at art c: it means a whole ton!!

Love y’all and please never lose your heart! I hope that your night/day is amazing and that you take good care of yourself!!

—Cleomi Myu