Thank you all for your love and support! (Patreon)

Just an appreciate post as you all have kept this patreon afloat! If not for all of the kindness and enthusiasm I would have never made it this far, thank you from the bottom of my heart for everything you do and I will try and make this patreon as worth it and passionate as I possibly can!

I have plans to keep may as productive as this month! Ideally I would like to keep pace going forward regardless of time passing c: I will try my best to! With that said I will likely be trying new voices and keeping the series going! I think I might start a new more pointed story with mha stuff when I approach it, as I feel like it’s been too long and gotten very vague overall so I struggle with continuing the stories of the old old ones! Instead I think I’ll reinvision them! And of course the other new ones as well! I was thinking that a fun idea may be recreating classic audios in addition to the new series which I fully plan to make many many many parts of!

Other than that, I’ve loved meeting you all in the streams! I think I may set up a better method to handle requests as rapidly switching voices in livestream is extremely difficult for my chords, so I think I’ll mostly keep requests to a smaller amount in the future! Gotta protect the chords for as long as I can! With that said I might do some sleep asmr lives too! It might be easier with some stuff to do so! Other than that I want to establish a lot more consistency in my streaming style as I feel like I’m a bit aimless (in part due to my personality being the type to really struggle to turn down requests, bruh saying no is hard ;-;) I kind of just want void to be able to be void in a way, sure I love bringing the characters into live and will absolutely do it! I just don’t want to do it so much that it’s only ever chaos XD I do like chaos though so it’ll probably keep same energy.

Honestly, streaming has taught me a lot about myself too, I mean, void looks like a lewd tuber on the surface but I realized my personality is anything but, which creates an interesting and drastic contrast in the dynamic of void audios and void live.

I realize it’s partly due to simply being allowed to be myself instead of portraying something always. It’s akin to almost the old yato audios from wayyy back when in some ways! I’m honestly looking forward to getting to know you all more through the chat! I hope you’ll join me in the lives in the future too! (Also I don’t want to sound like you can’t make requests, I do love to make people feel special, I just mean that I may have to skip over more than I did in previous streams to avoid overstressing my chords!)

For now I think I can’t really take on too much more than I already have planned above! But in the case there is other stuff that I plan I’ll give y’all heads up! Might try a new voice tomorrow orrrr who knows? Maybe a really classic one? I can’t decide! Love y’all and thank you for being a part of my dream! I love you all and appreciate you endlessly. And I hope it shows even just a little. Thank you for being so patient with me!! Hope you join me again for the chaos of May!

Edit: My goal this year is to work harder than anyone else who makes asmr c: I know it’s subjective and a very ambitious goal! But I won’t go down without a fight! I always thought of myself as uniquely suited to working crazy schedules but, I think I’ve found a semi zen way of keeping it without going so overboard I hurt myself, honestly, I feel a lot more inspired just following what inspires me and vibing with the rest of it, so it feels less like the me from when I was curled up and scared of creating,

Tw: mental health, sad, heart to heart. Yapping..

I’m afraid it’s something of a mix of my perhaps fragile or gentle nature that I end up as a feast or famine type person. I only know how to fully dive into things without hesitation or planning or I get stopped by anxiety and obsessing over every tiny things said about me on every social media anywhere. I’ll fully admit it, I know that it’s unhealthy to look into the eyes of people who hate you, but to me, I always cared, and still do, even about those who are ex fans, I know it’s unhealthy and I know full well, it’s important to focus on people who care about you and not on those who do not. But I don’t and never will know how not to care. Even if someone spits in my face or calls me a name, I can’t hate them. It’s stupid, but I honestly think in some ways I’ve never been guarded, smart enough, or mature enough to be as successful of a creator as I’ve been.

I know I have very little to complain about, and it’s much in part to all of your love and kindness, to which I will give my absolute everything to repay and to maintain this community as a positive and kind place no matter what. I only thought it fair you knew why it took so long for me to find my bravery. So many times I would take two steps forward only to reel back. I think my breaking point came when I realized the intense hate toward me was gradually causing my health to decline rapidly, and I couldn’t accept such a terrible end of just fading away. I didn’t want to see people so fixated on hate win, and to blind myself to the kind and wonderful people in this community.

I always created this content to make others not feel alone, to feel genuinely loved and not just be nsfw for the sake of nsfw. I wanted to tell lovely stories of romance and genuinely touching stories, I still do just as much as the day I started. I will always, until I lose my voice and even then I write or find some way to convey the stories that always found their way into my heart. I’m weak, I know I am, I know I have a lot to learn and grow still. I want to get much better at creating stories that don’t yap so much and content that has beautiful world building too!

My dreams won’t be so easily broken, and I’m so happy and thankful and genuinely lucky and privileged to have you all here with me. Thank you, a million billion times thank you for being here with me. And even if you can’t stay at some point thank you, I hope that your time here felt like home, and that you are always welcome to return. I want to make even free members able to have a place to chat. I love you all, and thank you for giving me a place in this world that feels like a home. I’ll never take it for granted and never stop creating with all my heart.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart,

Love, Cece