『ちょっとつかれました』 (Pixiv Fanbox)

lately, there are newcomer-san and people who have returned that need to understand me a bit desu.

I hate and am not good with celebration things desu.

my friend once come to surprise my HBD once at my home when I was still in middle school desu.

and that is my first and my last HBD desu.

what makes me feel bad about these celebration things desu.

I do not know how to celebrate desu.

I want to show my appreciation back to my friend but it takes time and effort to do something that I do not get used to it desu.

I have to go out, I have to find the shop, I have to know how to go to his place, I need to know what is the risk, ETC and I will go crazy desu.

one day I just told my friend

MAXI-san : If you have something to celebrate, please inform me...

Friend-A : sure

MAXI-san : and I will be sure to turn my phone off

and hide behind the mountain until it ends...

Friend-A : (>'-'<)

after that, I never got invited again desu.

but that guy still comes to find me for once in a while to play together desu.

we are already adults but when he comes to visit me, I always bring that guy to play like when we were a kid desu.

and it is not really bad at all desu.

once a year for me is ok desu.

the point is,

I hate wasting time desu.

I do not understand the point of living without reason desu.

I used to go out with some group of friends that have no direction desu.

just slow-move, pointless chitchat, one time is enough desu.

I decide to cut that kind of relationship out desu.

after that, I possessed the ability to make a judgment on people desu.

by results, by behavior, and ETC desu.

it would be a lot easy if I can see them in a desperate situation desu.

what kind of action they take when they fear,

what kind of action they take when they need something desu.

after doing something like this for 10 years I have attained two ability desu.

power of deduction things to see the future and solve the crime,

and the power to see through people's minds and situations from details and surrounding desu.

I said that I see and judge everyone from actions and results

and I expect them to do the same with me,

but I just realize that I force everyone to be sensitive and overthinking like me desu.

I do not know where is the common ground for us,

and I have no time to figure that out desu.

and I do not know if you guys can see through my work to see my effort and hardship to work inside them or not,

but this is the only thing I can offer desu.

but let me say this desu.

I create the Fanbox and the system here not for marketing desu.

this might sound a bit creepy but, I always watching and judging in order to find the people who can become my MVP desu.

MVP = simply the person who understands me and my agenda and helps me achieve the goal desu.

this might sound a bit sad and pathetic but,

believed me or not, you guys on Fanbox here have more value than my family and friends of mine around here desu.

because I am honest with you guys desu.

I do not need to fake,

I do not need to pretend to be happy to do someone favors desu.

here, I can have fun and you guys also having fun desu.

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all I want now is power desu.

I gonna spend my time learning and leveling up myself desu.

I mean, I already trade my life for this agenda desu.

I want you guys to support me by hoping for me to become the beast to lead the new era of the Hentai world desu.

I want you guys to support me by expecting me to become a more powerful desu.

and ready to be part of Maxi's direction in the future desu.

I understand that someone might be afraid that I am gonna be the type of person who is careless about my own supporters when I become powerful,

that is why a lot of people try to talk to me to win my trust and credit,

I gonna make everyone who worries about this feel better by this desu.

The good thing about my system is, that you guys have been chosen by me desu.

by my contents, by my types of work, by all stupid mistakes ETC

all of that is there for purposes desu. to bring you guys here at this Fanbox desu.

what I want is not money desu.

money just represents the coupon of hardship and proof to fight alongside me desu.

I might have high standards about friendships things,

but as long as you guys have the nickname or MVP title,

and always support me by understanding me,

I would do every whatever it takes to keep you guys around desu.

I have thought about it,

If I can trade everyone here for 100 million $,

what am I gonna do desu.

the answer is I would laugh and refuse it desu.

you guys here represent my pride desu.

even if my agenda come true by 100 million $ I would never know if my policy is possible or not desu.

I told Satanel-san before Fanbox project desu.

I just want to know what the view from the top looks like desu.

what the view of strong people looks like desu.

this might sound like ego but,

I need to know that I have what it takes to be on the top or not desu.

that means trading you guys for 100 million $ is just simple suicide for me desu.

and I also like the concept of teamplay desu.

[my view] would never be better than [our view] desu.

so no more worry ne, all I need is meaningful support from you guys desu.

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will keep updating the news below desu.