『覚悟です』update 002 (Pixiv Fanbox)

I think I need to tell you guys why I have to become Hentai and only Hentai desu.

the true reason why I will never turn into any other than Hentai creator desu.

I can tell a story about this now because I am no longer hurt by the past desu.

I already overcome my past desu.

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my first life,

living inside the safe cage

following what other people do

taking no risk

be a kind and good person to everyone but myself desu.

in short, perfectionists like the way of living desu.

my purpose in life is to be a NORMAL person desu.

Things start to change when I met that girl, the selfish girl desu.

If I have to describe her I have to say that

she is an easy woman desu.

she is what normal people called danger desu.

my father called her [bitch] once right at my face desu.

this is also one of the reasons why I hate my father desu.

and somehow that selfish girl becomes everything to me desu.

the reason that I broke up with her is

because I hurt her desu.

I the one who swears to myself to protect the women at all cost,

now lay a hand on her desu.

from the start, I just do not know how to love desu.

I thought that If I keep proving my worth to her

I will be able to stay with her forever desu.

but I am wrong desu.

that is the first time in my life that I toss away the most precious things desu.

after that, I am able to toss away anything desu.

I have no longer possess the motivation on living desu.

feel like I no longer have a heart desu.

I failed a lot

make a lot of mistakes

and my love for everything becomes toxic desu.

I no longer have the motivation to do anything desu.

should I find other women to love?

should I go after the money for my agenda?

should I go after becoming a famous person for my agenda?

should I try to take over the world for my agenda?

I already taste the forbidden fruit from that women desu.

nothing in this world can replace that fruit desu.

and I am already sick of giving someone to decide my fate desu.

power of love desu.

for that person, I am ready to make a whole world my enemies desu.

that is how much the motivation that I have got from her desu.

Hentai is the only thing that nearly gives me the same excitement desu.

this is not even half of what I used to have desu.

but when I think back, I just realize something that has been bugging me from the start desu.

the hentai quality desu.

I start to think that, everything in my life leads me to this point desu.

the instinct to create chaos on the Hentai world desu.

when I think about what I can do

when I think about what will happen If I do it

I got my heart back desu.

that means I can only live for this desu.

this is only the reason to keep me on living desu.

the stupid wish since I was a child desu.

It's still not enough to make me declare war with other Hentai creators desu.

but when I have your guys as backup,

this is why right now I am ready to start a war with all Hentai creator desu.

my heart is now fulfilled just like I used to be in love desu.

this is the reason why I can only be Hentai desu.

I can not be the normal person or live the normal life desu.

no women

no money

no standrad

or anything that can satisfy me better than the new era of the Hentai world desu.

in short,

Hentai is already the core of my life desu.

do not worry about I am turning into some designer or normal person ne.

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work update desu.

current work about 30% desu.

will keep updated news below ne.