メリークリスマスです (Pixiv Fanbox)

people in my family do not have time to celebrate anything desu.

that is why I really do not know why the school suddenly has a day off desu.

when I was I kid I was still happy with the day off because I can take time to play with other kids and play the game and secretly write, drawing hentai desu.

[those books already got thrown away by my mother cleaning desu.]

about celebrate desu.

there once in my life that one of my friends come to surprise me at my home for my birthday desu.

I do not even care about my own birthday desu.

I am only thankful that my father not kicking me out desu.

that can count as my birthday present desu.

the guy just shows up in the evening while I am having a dinner desu.

If possible I also want to return that favor desu.

he makes me feel like I have a value desu.

but I never do something like this to him desu.

I just do not know how desu.

that is why If my work can help people celebrate a bit about these celebrate day, I think this is the payback from back then desu.

that is how I know about what its like to celebrate desu.

when I got the money from the first donation all I celebrated is,

scream as loud as I can with my lazy brother and work non-stop for this piece desu.

https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/74829764

that is the happiest moment in my life desu.

it proves that I have enough value to work for hentai desu.

that friend of mine,

is the guy who happens to be the first person

to know about my hentai life desu.

he just happen to see some of the other hentai artists' pic inside the PC desu.

I save a lot of them inside my PC desu.

and they just happen to be [screen saver]

because we are watching the anime together desu.

this guy just overacting scream out sounds like I just killed someone desu.

that is one of my memories that I will never forget desu.

all I can scream back is [No No that's not mine!!!]

while my face turns pale desu.

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today, I just clear all the problems desu.

no more worry desu.

for now these 2 months I going to focus on working desu.

that is my celebrate desu.

I am just sick of the stress and worry too much and end up can not focus,

spent too much time reading about every possibility,

now all of that is over desu.

what I get in return is the knowledge desu.

the power to create the endless opportunity desu.

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what I trying to say is

I am grateful for you guys' support desu.

stop working on the service make me hate myself desu.

sadly I can not work in this condition desu.

that is why I need time to rest a bit more ne.

today I force myself to come to work and it did not give me a good result desu.

I will come back to work as soon as possible desu.

Merry Christmas desu.