次です (Pixiv Fanbox)

for newcomers about request desu. [can skip desu] some request menu still impossible for me to bring them out desu. without [exciting feeling] [or what I call [forbidden fruit technique]] I will not be able to make proper work desu. because work so far takes a lot of focuses, this [forbidden fruit technique] it really has a bad side effect desu. sometimes I also want to try drawing Manga desu. but [forbidden fruit technique] already completely take that possibility away from me desu. at first, I plan to get so powerful to the point that I have no need for this [forbidden fruit technique] desu. but I start to realize that thinking is a mistake desu. feel like if Mouse pen is the power of God-san, then this [forbidden fruit technique] is more like contact with the Satan-san desu. that means I might get so powerful but lack some common skill or something important in the end desu but do not worry desu. from the start, I always go for the route that I feel like I have to go desu. it always likes this desu. it more like instinct desu. deep inside I feel like every route I take is no mistake desu. my lazy brother said to me once that having weakness is not a mistake, but the place for friends to fill it. [hai, he is the next Natsume Yuujinchou desu.] he told me the reason why I have no friend desu. just like the Fanbox concept desu. something that I can not do, I will leave it to the team to the crew member desu.