一時的な計画です (Pixiv Fanbox)

[If I have fun I will do it ]
[If I happy I will do it ]
but I just realize that If I depend on this concept too much,
it can become a Double-edged sword like this time desu.
I already try to focus on Manga type but I feel sleepy and not be able to focus at all desu.
that means [the forbidden fruit technique] not working desu.
that might means my mental state not heal back to normal yet desu.
For the past few days.
I try to blame someone, try to ask for justice, try to make an excuse like a baby.
that is a really pathetic side of me desu.
the only excuse I have is because my body is weak and can not think properly desu.
. right now my mind is clear. life is not equal and I already know about this from the start desu.
instead of crying for help, I have to make a living and enjoy the moment and never waste the time. that what I should have to keep told myself desu.
I have my deep feeling that full of hatred desu.
but nothing good will do if I let that feeling take over me desu.
I will restart myself with different work that I will be able to make for now desu.
in short
[CG-progress] will become a CG piece of complete work desu.
the progress will be put on hold for a while desu.
and some of this new plan work will be put on public later too desu.
because without advertisement on Pixiv it will be like no food supply route to the castle to fight the war desu.
and due to the testing with this new plan
let see the result next month ne.