Moving Forward and Pausing Payments (Patreon)

Hello everyone! After much contemplation and deliberation I will be putting Patreon on pause for an undecided amount of time. Thank you for your support, attention, encouragement, as well as your critiques over the years, I would not have the skill set and body of work that I do, had it not been for this platform.

While Patreon was a lifeline for me and helped me grow and explore new ideas and my own creativity, I developed a lot of bad thinking and work habits that I can no longer allow to continue. I held hope for a long time that if I kept getting better, studying and polishing my skills that everything would turn out alright, however I have entered a self-created cage of not enough structure, focus and lack of enjoyment. Yes I am extremely proud of my work, yet I'm embarrassed by my behavior and lack of trust in myself. I’m also frustrated that I’ve spent a lot of time focusing on my ability and chasing a hundred other ideas at the same time as a means of procrastination, distracting myself from my biggest erotic art goals. Goals that I’ve had since the early 2010’s.

It’s time for me to build that structure and enjoyment again, and focus on one of those goals that I’ve been chasing on-again-off-again for a long time. This is the fantasy RPG/visual novel series I’ve been building since 2013, which I have titled “Crown’s Reverie”. I hoped I could balance producing the necessary early pitch for the project through Patreon, and I believe I can, but I think it would be best done through a patreon specific to the project, free of distraction from other directions and the seductive yet unstable energy that the ability to draw whatever you want (with the intent of monetizing it) creates without order and enjoyment.

I need some time off to think about things more, and allow myself to focus on the ideas I truly want to develop, free from the hurried and desperate feelings I’ve had for so long now while scrambling to make something people will like, effectively sterilizing my erotic inspirations and stoking the flames of my own insecurity.

I will be pausing payment processing for Patreon today for at least a month to think about things, catch up and rest. If during this time I produce artwork I think you would enjoy, I will definitely make it available. Please contact me or leave a comment if you have any questions or concerns and I will be sure to post another update on my decision soon.

Take care and thank you for reading!

Chris