Welcome Back! A Statement About Past, Present And Future (Patreon)

Hello everyone! Tomorrow I’m officially back from my family time break from social media! Actually, I have a few important announcements to make. This is going to be a little bit heavier than my usual announcements, since I want to tell you some more about my personal life. This is not a goodbye message, this is the biggest welcome back I can tell you!

First, let me thank you all. I’m really glad to have you as my audience and my supporters. Last year, and longer than that, I had a hard time in life and in general and you are part of a reason why I managed to not only survive but make it through. I had, to say it bluntly, a bunch of issues related to work and personal relationships. Mobbing, bullying, exploitation. All the bad stuff that happens when a person you looked up to decides to abuse your trust and use you for their personal goal. I’ve spent enough time covering for that person and prioritising his personal projects over my own career and personal life that I’m honestly sick of it. The promises of patents, joining corporate career and fame turned to nothing. Honestly, last year I was genuinely close to the point of full on breakdown. My confidence was broken, I had anxiety that started to damage my relationships and career. I genuinely felt like a failure. But, I have survived.

And I want to thank you all, since your support was part of what made me realise that I was being mistreated. Seeing you all cheering on me, waiting for my art and stories, it made me realise that I do have my own worth. It made me realise that I can work and survive independently from the job I was stuck with. Without help of the increasingly exploitative supervisor. Thinking about you helped me regain my confidence and finally strike back. Thank you all!

Last week, I decided to take a family time break over Easter and cut off myself from both work and social media and started to think. Hard. Then, I got an email from the same guy that caused me so many problems. He took his time from holidays just to complain and tell me that he started to actually try to spy on my personal projects not related to work. I got furious. The sheer indignity of this event woke up something inside me. I felt like something buried deep inside me got jolted up. I know I’m waxing poetics, but I genuinely felt whole again, like a slumbering part of me that got beaten into submission was jolted back to life. I had to fight.

Last few days of actually watching my health, exercising more and trying to keep the right sleep schedule made me realise one thing - I can’t keep up this just fighting for my survival for a meagre pay at a job I’m starting to hate under the worst supervisor I know. I have to seize the initiative. And I did. I actually started to push back against unreasonable demands and look for a new job. I also decided to revise my personal projects, which is what I want to tell you next.

First things first, I’m still making art. In fact, tomorrow I’m returning to regular writing and announcing some good news regarding my current series. However, I will be now treating art and game dev as my part time work instead of a hobby. I will be much more serious about making art and training. I still don’t know what schedule will be sustainable, but I will keep you guys updated. I mentioned gamedev, so I want to give you another announcement.

My co-operation with indie game dev team Dragon’s Workshop is now official. This Patreon will be receiving updates about game development and I will be using resources from it to support it, since it’s now a part of my art project. Please, check them out there: https://www.instagram.com/dragonsworkshop.1/?next=%2Fdragonsworkshop.1%2F

As for my art, I think I will be moving towards more wholesome content. Don’t get me wrong, I still love cute chubby chicks and I’m not doing it due to Patreon’s policy change. I just want to be less of a smut artist. I don’t believe that fat girls are inherently fetishistic and I’m going to stand by it. I just want to create some art I can show to my parents or use as a portfolio without causing a scandal. Still, that's something for a further future.

Being honest, trying to fix your life feels horrible. It’s hard, it’s slow and it’s annoying. But right now, I finally have goals and I finally have the support I need to rise back on my feet again. I’m eating well, exercising regularly. I finally healed back from the sinus infection. And now, I have somebody relying on me, to give me motivation to get up early and keep on going. That somebody being you, my dear audience and supporters. Thank you all for your support! See you tomorrow with more fun news! I’m also going to get much more active with polls and other interactive stuff!